A teensy bit excited..

I have a spring in my step, a giddy head. I feel light as a feather. I am sitting here, cappucino in hand, idly mulling over what to write. I have something that I haven't had in a while. That little tiny thing that mothers across the globe crave more than new clothes, younger skin and more sleep..

TIME.

I am child free. For the first time in nearly eight years I have an empty house. And for the first time I feel excited about the future. About what I am going to do with this time, how I'm going to fill it. After number two went to nursery I felt lonely, bored, a big empty hole where my child should have been.. a mourning of my children leaving me and being a lonely bored housewife.

But not this time. I am 40, I am happy and all three of my children are safely packed off to school and nursery where they should be. And now it's my time. My time to have a little teensy bit of my life back for me. And it feels good.

This weekend we went away for my husband's 40th. When we got back and were discussing a possible outing to the cinema for later this week, Senior stated in a very put out kind of voice "but you've just been away from us for a whole day and a night Mummy, that's enough. You can't leave us again". And I looked at her and very calmly said "Yes, I can. Mummy and Daddy need time for each other. To talk to each other about you and your future and what we are going to buy you for your birthday when you aren't listening".

That soon shut her up.

But my point is that it is ok to leave them now. They are fine and the apron strings need to be released now just a little bit. One day they will be gone and it will just be me and him enjoying some well earned peace together.

They, and I, have to prepare for that day even if it is a long way off.

And the preparation starts now.